What hurts about being ditched

What hurt me the most
about being ditched by him
was not his silence,
not even his absence,
because after all,
it’s possible to overcome
a breakup’s pain.

What hurts the most
is not having realized before
how little he actually loved me…
and the fact that I was
so jarred by pain
that my heart
was shattered
into a million pieces.
© author: Shoshan

He is gone,
he shall never be back with me,
I will never see him again,
he's gone, he left me,
and is no longer in my life.

But he remains in my thoughts,
I keep remembering him,
unable to forget about him,
why so much suffering?
why cant I leave him behind?
why is it so difficult?
Why, oh why?

I wish it didn't hurt so much,
but the truth is... it does.